i wish i should die today.I know the meaning of life is too much..which i cannot feel..i cannot grab.I am afraid about the reality....but truly..i dont want to die and dont like somebody to end up like me...kya bakwaaaas!!!!!!

reality sucks...more than every reality the fact..the present that matters...yes i too consider that...i need a space to express myself..to reveal myself 

ha ha ha...the things which never ends up in anything...for me the my satisfaction is the only thing which matters..why should i care about you..why the world beyond me think like this...never care about this...i wish i should die now...and please make sure this is not my final testament...

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since then???