i wish i should die today.I know the meaning of life is too much..which i cannot feel..i cannot grab.I am afraid about the reality....but truly..i dont want to die and dont like somebody to end up like me...kya bakwaaaas!!!!!!

reality sucks...more than every reality the fact..the present that matters...yes i too consider that...i need a space to express myself..to reveal myself 

ha ha ha...the things which never ends up in anything...for me the my satisfaction is the only thing which matters..why should i care about you..why the world beyond me think like this...never care about this...i wish i should die now...and please make sure this is not my final testament...

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since then???

rejected story

Design for future

Waiting for Ideas.....

till there......an insight

Once…one of my friend asked me…Akhilesh what is inside you...
The voice echoed .
I like to listen than talk.
I like to visualize from words. I like to listen to things around me. I always listen to hold my traditions as it is.
Traditions….who am I to change the traditions…It is my power. It lights up my future, present……Past

Past…..A part of past was dark. Dark doesn’t have the meaning as it is. It was night. I like the colour of night. It gives me strength. I can absorb the things round me. I can hide myself from my sorrows, hide my expressions….feelings.

Present….The present is mine.

Future….I am the beholder of my future. I will decide my future or I will mould my future to be….Still I am not free …..Locked to myself.

Myself …..a complex arithmetical form including my family. I like it….it gives me freedom….It makes my expressions revealed. It makes me confident to face the struggles.

Now….A new way to express myself.

0100101010…..It may be my future. I like to be’1’ in my future.’0’ gives me the strength…I consider it as myself. I should start from ‘0’.I needs to build up myself from ‘0’…the simplest form.

Design for my future…..Before that…I should realize….where Iam…
Some may ask…Akhilesh where you are going…..till there…..I used to repeat the same…till there….till there…..
Because I believe that it was written by someone …….till there….

….till where?…

….tilll there……till there….